:( It's been a long, long time...
Jan. 29th, 2005 08:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cybermathwitchI went through this morning and seriously slashed at my flist. I swear it's nothing personal - I've just had such a hard time keeping things together that my online stuff has fallen seriously by the way-side... and if I'm ever going to keep up w/ it, I had to slash and burn.
I hate that I don't have time to keep up with everyone. And it kinda aches that every time I have to go through and do this, I see more and more of the fandom people I've started to consider family on the list of people I'm removing. Now that Farscape is over, we (at least I - I'm not sure if anyone else has experienced this or not) seem to have less and less in common. :(
I still haven't even watched PK Wars. I'd actually kind of like to see the whole series again (or at least the last half of season 4!) before I watch it. That, and I'm kinda scared to. I'm scared of being disappointed in it, or of severe emotional trauma if I'm *not* disappointed. And it'll really be over, then.
Serious depression issues lately - and largely they're my own damn fault. I've been getting worse and worse about remembering my meds, and when I think about them, just not having the will to get up and take them. Much more sleep is happening in my world, but not in the good sense. I've been having trouble finding anything to read. I have DVDs (thank you Karen!) of Lost - of all the eps I've missed - that I haven't watched yet. Though I did make an oath at our first moon of the new year that I would spend more time on primary source material, and so far I've been doing pretty ok at that. I did watch some Lost the other day, and I've made it through almost all of the Roswell Season 1 DVDs that I got for Christmas from my Mommy. I just have "Toy House", "Into the Woods", "The White Room" (which I've *NEVER* seen), and "Destiny" left to go. I need to check my bank balance and then see how much Half.com and Amazon are selling the second season for. It's my favorite (though season 1 was technically, I think, better).
Anyway, much with the not wanting to do things like go to work, and much with the wanting to do things, and knowing that I should do things, and just not making myself get up and do them. Like my room. My room is an utter disaster area - boxes, piles, etc - I have lots of clean laundry in my car and at my boyfriend's house, but I can't bring myself to take it in the house because there's already so much stuff in there as it is. ::headdesk:: It's been hard to make myself get out of bed and shower in the mornings. :(
I've started teaching myself Japanese. So far I can write out the hiragana syllabery (sp?) pretty fluently, and read it back only slightly less so, and I've gotten much, much better at katakana. It's almost time to start tackling Kanji.
Anyone know of a site that has really basic Japanese to try to read? Like stories or manga or some-such?
Oh, and we have baby puppies, btw. Seven (!!!) of them. They're adorable, and *so* sweet! Finding homes for them all might be a challenge though, but surely to goodness we can appeal to the Gods to help...?
I hate that I don't have time to keep up with everyone. And it kinda aches that every time I have to go through and do this, I see more and more of the fandom people I've started to consider family on the list of people I'm removing. Now that Farscape is over, we (at least I - I'm not sure if anyone else has experienced this or not) seem to have less and less in common. :(
I still haven't even watched PK Wars. I'd actually kind of like to see the whole series again (or at least the last half of season 4!) before I watch it. That, and I'm kinda scared to. I'm scared of being disappointed in it, or of severe emotional trauma if I'm *not* disappointed. And it'll really be over, then.
Serious depression issues lately - and largely they're my own damn fault. I've been getting worse and worse about remembering my meds, and when I think about them, just not having the will to get up and take them. Much more sleep is happening in my world, but not in the good sense. I've been having trouble finding anything to read. I have DVDs (thank you Karen!) of Lost - of all the eps I've missed - that I haven't watched yet. Though I did make an oath at our first moon of the new year that I would spend more time on primary source material, and so far I've been doing pretty ok at that. I did watch some Lost the other day, and I've made it through almost all of the Roswell Season 1 DVDs that I got for Christmas from my Mommy. I just have "Toy House", "Into the Woods", "The White Room" (which I've *NEVER* seen), and "Destiny" left to go. I need to check my bank balance and then see how much Half.com and Amazon are selling the second season for. It's my favorite (though season 1 was technically, I think, better).
Anyway, much with the not wanting to do things like go to work, and much with the wanting to do things, and knowing that I should do things, and just not making myself get up and do them. Like my room. My room is an utter disaster area - boxes, piles, etc - I have lots of clean laundry in my car and at my boyfriend's house, but I can't bring myself to take it in the house because there's already so much stuff in there as it is. ::headdesk:: It's been hard to make myself get out of bed and shower in the mornings. :(
I've started teaching myself Japanese. So far I can write out the hiragana syllabery (sp?) pretty fluently, and read it back only slightly less so, and I've gotten much, much better at katakana. It's almost time to start tackling Kanji.
Anyone know of a site that has really basic Japanese to try to read? Like stories or manga or some-such?
Oh, and we have baby puppies, btw. Seven (!!!) of them. They're adorable, and *so* sweet! Finding homes for them all might be a challenge though, but surely to goodness we can appeal to the Gods to help...?
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Date: 2005-01-29 10:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-01-29 03:00 pm (UTC)re: PKW:
I've seen one bad review, and that was from a guy who gave nothing but BS reasons, like he was looking for only the bad stuff. It's a little rushed, considering they only had 4 hours to do what they wanted to do in 22, but it's actually the absolutely perfect way to end the series.
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Date: 2005-02-03 05:29 am (UTC)Why the frell didn't I just ask you all in the first place? ::thumps self on head:: Cause that would have been intelligent!
Thanks though, and please tell me I'll be able to look up your ramblings some place once I *have* watched it?
{{{{{{{{{{Natalie}}}}}}}}}}
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Date: 2005-01-29 06:14 pm (UTC)As for PKWars? I loved it; thought it was fantastic. But, I understand your apprehension.
I also get the thing about everyone having different interests now, too. Me? I'm totally into BtVS and AtS. My new crush is Alexis Denisof, and I just love everything about the Jossverse. Funny how I got hooked after everyone else. lol
Flist stuff is tough. I'm gonna cut my down soon. It's hard, but necessary.
Congrats on the puppies! That's awesome.
Just try to take care, hon. Love ya lots! And if you need to talk, by all means, give me a call. I'll send you my number, later.
*hugs*
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Date: 2005-02-03 05:31 am (UTC)Wanna puppy? ::g:: Kidding. Mostly. Although...
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Date: 2005-02-03 03:44 pm (UTC)Home - (615) 452-5656
Cell - (615) 708-0381
And you *HAVE* to meet Brian. Have to have to have to.
I agree. Speaking of men? Shawn and I have gotten...closer. Never thought it would happen, but we're in-separable now. lol
As for the puppy? As cute and cuddly as they are, I'm more of a cat person, myself. ;)