Ebert on Stern and Limbaugh...

havocthecat posted in her journal:

from Roger Ebert

Yay Anti-censorship commentary!

Sudden Realizations...

I read back over my journal this morning. The last time I wrote was early last summer (ok, the only time I wrote - I'd just gotten it.)

I was, in a word, shocked. I knew I'd been messed up emotionally at that point (there's a reason I'm on as many meds as I am) but at the time, well, I'd had no idea. Conversely I hadn't really understood just how far I've come *since* then. Having a steady, *good* job has done wonders for me - as has having a psychiatrist who knows what she's doing. (I adore her, she's great about things, and I'm pretty sure she's empathic.)

I've got a *MUCH* healthier self esteem, now when I cry it's usually just out of frustration and exhaustion (it's a good tension reliever for me) but it's not the really scary kind. Which is not to say I'm at all problem free, I still have bound volumes of insecurities, but I'm better.

Proof of this: reading all of that this morning didn't make me cry. It didn't make me hate myself. All it did was make me go "what the hell was I thinking?"

Now all I have to do is get my sleep apnea straightened out.