12 Days of Ficmas - Day Five: Anticipations and Conclusions

[cybermathwitch]

Title: Anticipations and Conclusions

Author: Koren M.

Rating: R  (mild sexual content)

'Ship:  Kara/Lee

Disclaimer: Not mine.  They're Ron Moore, David Eick, and the SciFi Channel's

Warnings: sexual content

Spoilers:  None

Summary:  Moments in time, highlighting anticipation, and reveling in conclusions.

 

Notes: Thanks to ez_as_pi  for the beta.

 

Anticipations and Conclusions

 

arch

There's an arch to her back when she stretches that drives Lee wild.  Absolutely frakking insane, actually, and that's the real reason he averts his eyes when she dresses now.  Not because of some sense of being a gentleman, or of propriety.  No, he looks away, because if he doesn't, one of these days, he's going to go insane watching her, because he can't have her.

Except in his dreams.

 

bottom

The first time they're together, Lee thinks, he wants to put Kara on the bottom. Ever since a rather drunken conversation with Zak once upon a time, he's had an unrelenting fantasy of her pinned beneath him, writhing around him while he makes her come. A lot. Over and over again, until the only thing she can think or say is his name, and the only thing she can hear is her name coming from him.

He likes the idea of dominating a force of nature, which is what he sees her as, most days. It's a lot like flying, he thinks, like flying in combat with all that power and energy, just as much strategy, and just as dangerous.

 

top

The first time they're together, Kara thinks, she's going to have to be on top. She's afraid (terrified really) that if she's not on top (and therefore in control) it'll be a repeat of the disaster with Baltar - she's afraid she'll reveal too much, feel too deeply and too strongly, and that he'll see it and someday, they'll have another fight and he'll use it against her and destroy her with it.

But if she's on top, she'll be the one in control, of the situation, Lee, and most importantly of herself. She just has to keep telling herself that, and she'll be ok.

Really.

 

submissive

Lee Adama would never, ever have thought that Kara Thrace would be submissive during sex. If anything, between the stories he'd heard, what Zak had told him, and his own limited experience that one drunken attempt they'd made at frakking, he would've thought she'd have been constantly pushing for control. Constantly testing and fighting against her partner to be on top.

But when they finally come together, sober, as equals, she lets him sweep her away on sensations. She doesn't lie passive, she twists and moves and arches and comes, but she lets him lead the way, lets him set the pace and lets him hold her down - an experience not unlike trying to catch fire with bare hands.

 

virgins

Neither one of them has been a virgin in a very, very long time.  Without the alcohol or the anger, though, it feels like they are.  They're both virgins again standing in front of their first partner, and they just don't quite know what to do.  They can do rage, they can do drunk, they can do illicit all just fine, but coming together sober, calm, and without other ties binding them apart from each other may just be enough to do them in.

He reaches out tentatively for the hem of her tanks, and she slides her fingertips hesitantly into the waistband of his sweats and the sensation of skin against skin is almost too much for either of them to stand.  It's never been like this before, it'll never be like this again, and the realization of just what they'll be losing if they frak it all up is almost enough to bring them both to their knees.

His mouth sets itself lightly against hers so that she can feel his breath against her lips and she feels more than hears him whisper a question to her.  "Is this ok?"

In response she inhales, then gives herself over and lets go.

 

writhe

She writhes underneath him, and it's one of the sexiest things Lee's ever felt.  The way that her back arches up to push her breast into his hand, the way that her leg twists against him when he's got one of his hands cuffed around her ankle.  He trails light fingers down her stomach and watches the muscles jump in response.

Sex with Kara is beyond his expectations, and he had plenty.  They'd built up the sexual tension for years - literally - and it was bound to be explosive when they finally gave in.  He'd expected power, passion, even anger and pain- because they can't seem to escape those feelings when they deal with each other- but he'd never expected to be able to use the word exquisite.

But he can.

Her writhing turns to more deliberate motions and she's rising up and pushing him back and down so that she's on top. Now it's her turn to make him writhe.  He's pretty sure he'll enjoy it just as much.

 

afterglow

They never really have time to bask in the afterglow of really good sex.  There's always someone or something wanting their attention, be it a nugget looking for Kara to ask a question or a pilot trying to find their CAG to ask about a flight schedule change - the Admiral calling a meeting, or the alarm claxons telling them that they have Cylon Raiders incoming.  It's always something, and Lee's realized more and more that what he's really been craving lately isn't sinking into Kara and frakking her brains out - it's sinking down beside her on the too small racks and just being with her.

 

Comments

[cattm.livejournal.com]

I love the way these pieces tie in together with each other, progress. They are poignant, short but very succinct. Beautiful. I love your writing style, and I'm looking forward to the other days of ficmas. :)

[cybermathwitch.livejournal.com]

You have no idea how glad I am to hear you say that (about the pieces tying together.) The entire thing was a run of around 65 or so word prompts (and their results) in no particular order, so it came down to printing it out, cutting it up, and playing "match the story fragments". Some of them were very intuitive, but others (like this one) were more like "does any of this actually go together? really?" and I was worried about it. :)

Thank you!

[enots.livejournal.com]

Completely gorgeous and beautifully written. Love all the descriptions.

[cybermathwitch.livejournal.com]

Thanks! :)

[anastashial.livejournal.com]

Really love the last one. That ability for them to just be together in the quiet that we haven't seen fully fulfilled for them yet.

[cybermathwitch.livejournal.com]

I know. That is one thing I would really love to see - at least once - between them. It's not likely to last in their world, but they deserve at least the one time.

[elzed.livejournal.com]

Oh dude = just read the three days in one go and omg. The Leoben ones were harsh, and terrible, and the pain - ack. And then the rage and tension between them, the loss of trust, the way it was all about how they just stopped trusting themselves, was really powerful.

But this one, oh, it made me happy. Also? Hot. And I love how they alternate the roles, naturally, flowing with each other.

He likes the idea of dominating a force of nature, which is what he sees her as, most days. It's a lot like flying, he thinks, like flying in combat with all that power and energy, just as much strategy, and just as dangerous.

Those two sentences, especially, really rang true. Thank you for the bonanza...

[cybermathwitch.livejournal.com]

You're very welcome. And thank you for the lovely feedback. I'm really glad that you're enjoying them. :)

[joyshine.livejournal.com]

OM NOM NOM NOM OM.

I just watched Eye of Jupiter and a couple more today....Oh, the tasty, tasty crack.

[cybermathwitch.livejournal.com]

::vbg:: I'm having... issues with watching the rest of the series, although I just saw the trailer for season 4.5 (do *not* like the way skiffy breaks up seasons) and it had this amazing shot... loved loved loved and now it's killing me that I'm not caught up but I really do want to finish my fics before I watch anymore of the show.