cybermathwitch | All Sorts of Stuff

So it's been one of those days/weekends that has too many crappy things to be good, but just enough good things that it's not crappy. Which is frustrating.

So Thursday night I go to the 'boro to hang out with my friends and go shopping, because Gret decided to get new clothes. It was loads of fun, and I found all sorts of cute stuff, but I'm completely broke, so it also kinda sucked. Because I couldn't get any of said clothing. Gret got some good stuff though. I also hadn't taken my meds in a few days, which meant that I was bitchy, nervous, and generally not much fun for me to be around me let alone other people. I've *got* to get better about remembering to take stuff.

Friday started out great - I got up and took my computer over to Azzo's to be fixed, then went and hung out with Deb in the Honor's office all day. I found out that Beck had gone home that morning sick :( so she wasn't there to hang out with too. Took Deb home and fixed a few things on her computer and tried to (verbally) catch her up on the last season and a half of Farscape. Then I met Gret and got sushi and we took it to Beck and Carl's to play Shanghai Rummy and watch Farscape. Only Beck didn't really feel like playing, and while it's still fun, it just isn't the same w/o her (even though she was just on the couch reading).

Then we watched Farscape.

I honestly still don't know how I about the ep... My gut reaction to it at the time was that (while it had a few good moments) it was utter crap all-in-all. And I don't like feeling that way about a show - especially one of my favorite shows. A couple people I've talked to (Gret and 'Lys) looked at what was going on completely differently than I did, but what I saw the first time through was that they tried to take a serious issue and then threw in slap-stick. And usually I really like how Farscape blends the two, but this time it seemed gratuitous and just off. Because if you're looking at it literally (which could be my problem, but I tend to do that the first time through) there's no way that John's changing anything would have resulted in that kind of character stew. Totally different characters, totally different species - all that I could buy. But the obviously comedic (and shock-value) hodgepodge of people that they used (while I think the actors did a great job with it) just detracted from the message for me. The scene on the command carrier, as well as the couple of re-takes from the first ep made a much better point than the others did.

Which is not to say that there weren't things that I liked, because there were - and the jury is still out on the "surprise" ending.

All-in-all though, I was left feeling really awful (and not the good, angsty, well-written-but-hurts-like-hell awful, but the oh-god-my-favorite-show-is-*sucking* awful) and gained only slight comfort by the fact that the radio started playing Jimmy Eat World's "In the Middle" as soon as I got in the car. I don't like the song so much (although it's growing on me) but the sentiment in the chorus "It just takes some time, little girl, in the middle of the ride, everything, everything, will be just fine, everything, everything will be alright" was kind of comforting.
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So this morning, Gret wakes me up and we go to brunch at Cracker Barrel, which was good. We had to stop and shop for wedding and b-day presents at Pier1 and at Stonekeepers, which was fun, even though I saw more wonderful stuff I can't afford right now. We went back to her house, picked Jim up, and went and saw XXX, which rocked. (More about that later.) Then we find out that John over at Azzo had tried to call while we were in the movie to tell me that my comp was ready - but that they were leaving at 3. (This is at about 4:30.) So I didn't get Lana back, and I have to drive all the way back to the 'boro on Monday.

Downhill from there, I'm afraid. I was supposed to go home this afternoon because we were going to do my Grandmother's b-day dinner tonight. So I didn't really mind coming back sooner than I would have otherwise, and I was all geared up for dinner out with the family... and then I get home and it's been rescheduled for tomorrow night. (It's becoming a *huge* pet peeve of mine to find out at the last minute that things have been changed.) But I was comforting myself in the knowledge that at least I had a brand new Linda Howard I'd borrowed from Becky to read. Then I open it up only to find out that it is, in fact, one I've already read with a new cover on it. (I hate it when publishers do that.) So no new book. *And* there was just frozen pizza (which is ok, but nothing compared to dinner out at a nice restaurant)for dinner.

It's all a bunch of little stuff, but they all pile up to make a fucking huge frustrating mess. And I'm just generally in a really bitchy mood of late, and I don't think it's entirely the meds. (Which yes, I'm getting refilled first thing on Monday. But the apothecary is closed for the weekend, so I'm SOL until then.) I think a lot of it is realizing that I'm still stuck doing nothing for the next four months. I feel trapped, and all I want to do is go and hit something, or scream, or cry.

And now that I've bored/depressed/etc anyone reading this, I'm going to go see if I can curl up in my bed and read to escape for awhile. Oh, and watch the last few eps of QAF. Maybe that will help some.