Do I ever understand! I've spent my entire life in the same condition, I suspect. One never knows, even when told in detail, all the pain and the quality of the experience of another, but what you describe gives me the "You too?" resonance. Been there, done that, etc.
I have found a few things that do help me. Maybe you would find them useful too.
One--diet. Seratonin, the core factor of the SSRI antidepressant approach, is a chemical product of the digested protein tryptophan, present in milk that has been heated (i.e., cocoa, or hot milk with some butter, salt and pepper in it--actually quite good!), in green beans, in turkey! A turkey sub is marvelous, especially with a side of hot straight-cut grean beans.
You can't buy L-tryptophan in the USA any more...four in 100,000 are violently allergic to it and some have died from the over-the-counter Health Food Store products.
St. John's Wort is tricky, but useful, if one is very careful. It either contains or has a booster for Seratonin. Not doctor recommended, but it's cheap in comparison to manufactured meds.
I won't use it. Tried, didn't like result. Didn't like Zoloft either, for that matter. Now I'm on Lexapro, expensive, but the doc is supplying me for the moment. It is another of the SSRI's.
Two--exercise. Releases seratonin and other related "endorphins" in the system, better than blocking reuptake, which the Zoloft/Prozac type meds do.
Three-meditation and prayer. The delta/alpha activity in the brain also releases Seratonin. Robert Jordan's description of the "void and the flame" in Rand's teaching from his father Tam is an example. The Aes Sedai beginning exercises described also are good examples. This use of visual imagery is "Neural Linguistic Programing"--NLP. Words, phrases shape our inner life, which is an part of our makeup that is very powerful but almost robotically obedient to "programming."
One can make significant changes in ones thoughts and feelings by reworking, editing the "dicta" (rules) that govern how we think, feel, live.
Sometimes the images are best if done non-verbally through visual, rather than verbal, imaging. I would love to teach you how to do some things with this powerful method, but is pretty much impossible from three hundred miles away.
Love you! Hang in there, let the pain blow through you, not blow you around. Be transparent, or think of a screen versus a glass storm door. Be "screen," not "glass." (That's an example of the NLP described above.)
I sure hope some of this is of help. It has helped me--but I learn very, very slowly when it comes to matters about how to live, choose life, choose to be content and serene (Seratonin at work!).
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Am I crazy?
Date: 2006-01-26 12:42 pm (UTC)I have found a few things that do help me. Maybe you would find them useful too.
One--diet. Seratonin, the core factor of the SSRI antidepressant approach, is a chemical product of the digested protein tryptophan, present in milk that has been heated (i.e., cocoa, or hot milk with some butter, salt and pepper in it--actually quite good!), in green beans, in turkey! A turkey sub is marvelous, especially with a side of hot straight-cut grean beans.
You can't buy L-tryptophan in the USA any more...four in 100,000 are violently allergic to it and some have died from the over-the-counter Health Food Store products.
St. John's Wort is tricky, but useful, if one is very careful. It either contains or has a booster for Seratonin. Not doctor recommended, but it's cheap in comparison to manufactured meds.
I won't use it. Tried, didn't like result. Didn't like Zoloft either, for that matter. Now I'm on Lexapro, expensive, but the doc is supplying me for the moment. It is another of the SSRI's.
Two--exercise. Releases seratonin and other related "endorphins" in the system, better than blocking reuptake, which the Zoloft/Prozac type meds do.
Three-meditation and prayer. The delta/alpha activity in the brain also releases Seratonin. Robert Jordan's description of the "void and the flame" in Rand's teaching from his father Tam is an example. The Aes Sedai beginning exercises described also are good examples. This use of visual imagery is "Neural Linguistic Programing"--NLP. Words, phrases shape our inner life, which is an part of our makeup that is very powerful but almost robotically obedient to "programming."
One can make significant changes in ones thoughts and feelings by reworking, editing the "dicta" (rules) that govern how we think, feel, live.
Sometimes the images are best if done non-verbally through visual, rather than verbal, imaging. I would love to teach you how to do some things with this powerful method, but is pretty much impossible from three hundred miles away.
Love you! Hang in there, let the pain blow through you, not blow you around. Be transparent, or think of a screen versus a glass storm door. Be "screen," not "glass." (That's an example of the NLP described above.)
I sure hope some of this is of help. It has helped me--but I learn very, very slowly when it comes to matters about how to live, choose life, choose to be content and serene (Seratonin at work!).