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[cybermathwitch]

NaNo Update:

Thus far?  Not going so well.  A great deal of my motivation is lacking, whether that's lack of my laptop, or because I'm just generally kind of blah this fall, I'm not sure.  I *do* know one thing that's not working regarding my original story, though.

I don't like it.

And before anyone starts mentioning the inner editor - that's really not my problem right now.  Some of what I'm writing is good, some of it's crap, as is par for the course for around 18000 words.  That's fine.  That's not the issue.  But I don't *like* the story.  If I picked the book up at the store and looked at it?  I probably would put it back down without much other thought.  It's not actively things I hate, I'm not going into Magna Carta II territory, but the characters that are trying to talk to me and the story that they're trying to tell doesn't do a damn thing for me.

What I *REALLY* want to be writing right now?  This totally awesome BSG fic idea Pi and I have been poking at for awhile now.  That I've got people talking to me, the story idea, everything - and it's totally something that I would want to read.

Damn it.

PS: 
Even through the fog of a nasty tension migraine, I can appreciate the irony of the fact that Meg Cabot's pep-talk I found in my email after writing this talks all about abandoning a story for "the next big thing" and having a milk carton of shame of half finished stories you mean to come back and finish once you've worked on the shiny new story.  The difference here is - I don't even want to put what I've got in a milk carton to wait for me to come back to it.

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[black-magdalene.livejournal.com]

So, leave it behind. It's silly to spend the next couple of weeks with a story to whom you don't want to give the time of day. Seriously, my relationship rule applies here too. If you aren't getting Something out of it and your energy wanes, leave.

[cybermathwitch.livejournal.com]

I got very, very similar advice from my father last night as well. Usually, I wouldn't even *question* doing that - the only thing even making me question the issue is the commitment and competition involved in writing for NaNoWriMo, and trying to determine if this is, in fact, the week-two-ness of life or if it's something deeper. Ultimately, I think it is a much deeper disatisfaction (an instance in which doing two separate stories actually helped me because I got to see firsthand the difference between week-two disatisfaction and the genuine bone-deep kind).

That said, I had an epiphany in the shower this morning that allows me to use enough of what I'd been working on (thematically, even if the lion's share of the actual writing will become "struck-through") that I don't feel like I'm totally cheating and starting an utterly new project. :)

And btw, Congrats again on comps!

[black-magdalene.livejournal.com]

Thank you, love. Having comps over with is a BIG relief.
And I'm glad you've reworked the Nano to suit you. Das ist gut! Good luck.